10. Confession of the heart
It's almost a week since the young medical
student Dimitris, visited the wise ascetic elder at the chapel of the
Archangels, up on the mountain.
Their discussion on
various spiritual topics and especially the sacrament of confession, had
captivated him. Throughout the week, he tried to study and discover, as much as
it was possible, the errors and passions of his soul and to write them down. He
was determined to confess them to the wise elder priest and ask him to guide
him on the spiritual path he had already begun.
Now, he is happily going
up the path through the forest, which would soon bring him closer to his
divinely inspired guide.
The joy of the
ascetic elder was obvious, when he saw the young student sitting next to him
and asking him to hear his confession.
-My beloved child
Dimitris, this moment is the most holy and sacred in your life. It is the first
time that you will confess to the king of our world and our God, to our Lord
Jesus Christ. So I wish that your confession will open the door of blessings,
so you can live the real paradise of your soul.
-What is the real paradise of the soul, father?
-It is the absolute
joy and happiness that someone feels when he will be worthy, with the grace of
the Holy Spirit, to live secretly in his soul, the infinite motherly love that
our heavenly Father has for all His children.
-I would like very
much, holy father, to feel it too!
-But that's why you
are here now, my child. So I can help you walk on that path, that will quickly
bring you to the kingdom of absolute happiness, which is the divine heart of
our heavenly Father.
-Does confession
help this?
-But, of course,
because without it you cannot start your spiritual life.
-In confession what
should we say?
-All mistakes and sins
we made and hurt our heavenly Father. First of all, we say the greatest, which
were the reason we have distanced ourselves from His embrace, and then the
lesser ones.
-What are the
greatest sins, holy father?
-They are firstly
the ones we make against our God and then those we make against our fellow men.
Those, however, we make against our Creator God are the worst. Those people
that fall into these sins, allow the demons to easily rule and dominate their
souls.
-What are these
sins?
-The greatest of them
is to say that there is no God and
that everything was created by chance. Next, believing that God exists, but
speaking against Him with disrespect and insolence, blaspheming His holy name and saying with satanic selfishness that
you ignore and reject Him. Into this
sin fall all those who engage in satanic
rituals, but also various forms of magic, such as fortune tellers, like the
coffee grounds and tea leaf readers. In doing so they not only deliberately
deny the true God, but also with an awareness of what they do, they resort to
Satan himself becoming the leader of their lives. In this way, however, they surrender their valuable soul to
Lucifer himself. They fall into these major sins many times, without
realizing it, and those people send to hell someone else or even their own
children. Many times children are
demonized because of their parents' blasphemy! Therefore, curses and
blasphemies should not exist in a Christian's vocabulary.
-Apart from the
sins that offend our God Himself, what are those that offend our fellow man?
-The worst of them,
which easily makes a soul lose the grace of the Holy Spirit and allows the
power of Satan himself to dominate over it, are jealousy, envy and criticism.
These are the three main sins that Lucifer fell into and forced God himself to
send him away from Him into the depths of hell. Lucifer, who was in the
beginning a great Archangel of God, when he became jealous of the glory of the
Son of God and wanted from envy to grab His throne, he was immediately expelled by God the Father and ended up
becoming Satan and the ruler of Hell. There, in the terrible realm of absolute
darkness and misery, he wants to drag as many people as he can, because of his hatred for God and His perfect
creation, which is man. As weapons to fight mankind, he is using the same
mistakes that he used to sweep along with him to hell those angels, who
believed his slanders and condemnation against the true God, with the result
that they became demons instead of angels! He wants to do the same with those
people, who will believe in him and follow his
evil recipes, to fill their hearts with envy, jealousy, criticism and
slander. Apart from these sins, there are others which may not be
considered the worst, but have the power to greatly hurt and endanger a soul.
-What are these, father?
-They are
garrulity, selfishness, lies, rudeness, indifference to the suffering of
others, boredom when praying, not going to church on Sundays to thank God for
what He gave you, whining continuously at the slightest problem, being cocky
and cheeky, not respecting your fellow man, thinking you're always right and
everyone else is wrong and so many others you will discover little by little,
as you will proceed in spiritual life. All these mistakes and sins constitute
one aspect of confession, which most people usually do. But there is another
aspect of confession, that makes our good God rejoice much with those souls who
confess.
-What do these
people confess, holy father?
-These people, my child, don't only confess their mistakes, but also the
love they're hiding in their hearts for their well-beloved God.
- So what do they say at
their confession?
-To help you to understand how they are
confessing, I will ask you to answer me, what are two young people who are in
love and are together saying to each other; what they are confessing, that is?
-People in love,
holy father, do not want to talk about anything other than their love. Only
that concerns them.
-So do these people
when they come to confess, they do not simply say the mistakes they made, but
they ask to learn the cause that made them fall into these mistakes and wounded
their God. They are eagerly seeking to learn, not only how to correct their
mistakes, but how to increase the divine love that burns in their heart for
God. Isn't this, my child, the most
beautiful confession of the heart? To speak only of your love and what will
make this love stronger and more perfect? That's exactly how all spiritually
noble and pious souls are confessing, in whose hearts there is only the desire
and love for the Bridegroom Jesus. Guided
by divine love that burns in their hearts, they say all their mistakes and are
fighting with pride to remove every mistake and sin which is hurting their
beloved God.
-I imagine, holy father, that this would be the most beautiful
confession that someone can make before God. How much I would like to learn so
I can confess like that too!
-Ask for it
continuously in your prayer and it will be given to you as a divine gift. To
achieve that, my beloved child, it is easier to hide like a baby in the divine
motherly embrace of your heavenly Father
and leave your precious soul in His hands
with complete trust and love. Then you will not confess as all people do
with fear of being punished, but as a divinely in love man who, will only fear,
that he will hurt by accident the only thing that he loves more than anything
on earth, his heart.
-It's true, my holy
father, that only a soul who is so much in love can make great sacrifices for
what he loves. Now I can understand why our Saints sacrificed their lives for
Christ. They were flooded by the divine love for God our King! How I want to be
one of those souls, who will adore our heavenly Father with all the strength of
their souls!
-I wish wholeheartedly, that you accomplish this, my blessed child!
